Xianzai (now)

School is stress. I=stress. Certain recent events in my life have led me to my current mood and feelings. Maybe it is a cycle, but I need to get out of here. It doesn't neccessarily mean Iowa either. I want to disappear from my present situation. Since I don't have a car and I have class in 30 minutes, my best solution is to go rock climbing this weekend. Let me rephrase that. Learn how to rock climb. If I didn't have social obligations, this weekend, I actually would skip out on Halloween completely. At the moment, I am supposed to be Ms. Peacock, a Clue character within the group of 6. Not that I want to look "sexy" but I really don't want to spend ample amount of money on grandma clothes, something that I won't ever wear again until I'm 70, maybe. Not exactly worth it. In addition, I feel hostility from too many people (1) amping my frustration. I'm not going to point because it isn't neccessary, besides sometimes I enjoy the motivation. The anger fueld the 6.3 miles I ran last night and that distance still didn't feel like enough, I could have ran 10 and felt perky and still slightly bitter. I function better this way, I determined. The general feeling today is, as my facebook status quotes, Anna is....wanting to be far, far away from here...maybe California.